I’m really tired. I’m tired of the repetitive work that I get to do. I’m tired of waiting for the admission results from all the universities I’ve applied for here in California. I’m tired of fixing somebody else’s boo boo. I’m tired of playing catch up with my school work and my work. I’m tired of the people here at work, this is what it feels like to be in high school. I’m tired of being tired!

High school is tough, especially for us girls. Even if we try not to conform, in some way or another we still do.  Our parents doesn’t help at all. They want to, most of the time, but when they do they ended up not understanding anyways, it’s like as if they never passed by this stage.  Anyways, high school girls can be mean and catty. Talk about stabbing each other in the back to make sure  one still has a high position in the social totem pole. This is like the politics at my work. People have to be careful around each other. It’s so pathetic sometimes. Grow up! That’s what i want to scream at them most of the time. Although when I speak to them, they sound more mature, maybe because its those big words they try to use, masking the immaturity of their actions. Sometimes I find it funny, but mostly irritating. I work in a service industry, an outpatient clinic for people with eye problems in one of the most famous eye institutes in the nation (we deal with retina mostly). But for a work that has a lot of responsibility, you’d think you’ll find capable and smart people, but you’re wrong. I’m wrong. I really want to get out of this place. Get that degree and move up a little higher in the working world so I don’t get affected of this stupid things as much. I could be wrong but at least I won’t be stuck here. Some people here have been here for more than 15 yrs, the same job, same work for all those years. I can’t. I need change. I need to be able to make change. I have so much ideas that its so frustrating sharing it with stupid people. It’s useless here in this level. Hopefully, I can change my path sooner than I expected. there are still good people here as well. Like my boss, the doctor, she gives me independence and trust. She’s open to my ideas when most people are not. I hope there’s more people like her in this world.