I’ve read somewhere that nobody is great without work. It’s nice to believe that if you find the field where you’re naturally gifted, you’ll be great from day one, but it doesn’t happen. There’s no evidence of high-level performance without experience or practice.   I’m thinking of going to Medical School. This is no easy decision for me. My life will be revolving around this. I want to ask myself over and over again if this what I really want. I wanted to be reassured that I will be okay. But truth be told, there is no such thing as assurance in life. We just all go forward and hope for the best. I would like to think that if I exert effort in this, I might just be able to succeed.

Then, here’s my other issue. I’m a woman. I just got married. The inevitable will happen..my inclination to have a family. When is the right time to start having kids? Before med school? after med school but before residency? I just spoke to a friend and she advised me to have the baby now. She actually made a good point. She told me that if I have the baby now, it’ll be better because by the time I’m in med school, my baby is old enough for daycare. 

Then, there’s the issue of funds.  Med school is very expensive. I’ll probably be in debt for hundred of thousands of dollars. Then having a baby will add up to that cost. I know my husband will likely have  godd stable job by the time I’m halfway done in med school. What’s nice is i have a husband who will support me. But here’s the downside, he didn’t want to talk to me abou all this. He talks to me about school and our plans. But I feel and I know that he’s avoiding the conversation about having a baby. I’m sure he’s scared. Me too. But I need him now more than ever to talk to me..to open up to me.  To move ahead with plans.  This is going to be some tough path…hopefully, I get out in the end happy.